My life is full of "fluff." My profession requires me to daily engage in superficial pleasantries and less-than-deep conversations. I have a toddler that goes 90mph from the time his feet hit the floor until bedtime. Many days, I wonder if diapers, dishes, laundry and taking care of the animals are the only hobbies I have. It is very easy for me to get lost in a routine that requires no deep thought.
This blog gives me an outlet for that. I have tried to post the "fluff" blogs and it just leaves me feeling empty. (Disclaimer: I don't think there is anything wrong with the "fluff" blogs. I just have enough fluff in my life, I don't need another spot to fill with it.)
When I come here, I desire to expose a deeper part of my heart.
The last few months, I have been processing a lot of deep thoughts. My heart and mind have been stretched and tried. Many times, I wanted to share, but I just couldn't find the words. I knew I would be left feeling empty if I posted something that wasn't on my heart, so I stayed silent.
Last week, I was listening to a sermon and heard the preacher say, "Sometimes, we need to be silent to be able to learn what we are being taught." I feel that best explains my silence.
"Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10
(Friday evening, I went to a retreat with the women of my church. Psalm 46:10 was our verse for the weekend.)